This week was pretty good. It's interesting.... just when you think you're getting into a groove, BAM! I had a couple of incredibly difficult moments this week that sent me back a few steps. I have cried on my way to work at least 3 times this week. I had forgotten, but that was the main time that I LOVED spending with Kailee. I would talk with her and tell her lots of things about me, her dad...etc. I just feel so empty and alone as I drive to and from work. Brent has been "lucky" enough to call me during a couple of crying spells and has been able to calm me down and get me laughing again.
Seeing kids isn't as hard as I thought it would be. I've had a few kids ask me about Kailee. I have been happy to talk about her. I saw a woman this week who is due at the end of January, and that was extremely hard for me to see. She's due 5 days after me, and I got so upset. It happened very quickly and I just couldn't keep the tears from coming.
There has also been a tragedy at our school this week. A small child died. Small children shouldn't die..... it's just not fair. I have been trying to imagine how that mother must feel all week. To have known her child for months and then to have that child die. My heart aches so deeply for her and her family.
On a more positive note, I mailed Kailee's birth announcements this week. They are so beautiful!!! (Thank you Pamela!) I have been so proud because it has opened a door for people to feel comfortable asking me about Kailee. I love talking about my daughter.
Seeing kids isn't as hard as I thought it would be. I've had a few kids ask me about Kailee. I have been happy to talk about her. I saw a woman this week who is due at the end of January, and that was extremely hard for me to see. She's due 5 days after me, and I got so upset. It happened very quickly and I just couldn't keep the tears from coming.
There has also been a tragedy at our school this week. A small child died. Small children shouldn't die..... it's just not fair. I have been trying to imagine how that mother must feel all week. To have known her child for months and then to have that child die. My heart aches so deeply for her and her family.
On a more positive note, I mailed Kailee's birth announcements this week. They are so beautiful!!! (Thank you Pamela!) I have been so proud because it has opened a door for people to feel comfortable asking me about Kailee. I love talking about my daughter.
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