After all the worry ,about shopping too prematurely, I am now in full nesting mode. Our doc told us that Colson would be viable at 24 weeks, and that's only 3 weeks from today! Each day after that he "cooks" is just icing on his developmental cake! The doctor said at 28 weeks, Vanderbilt has 100% survival rate in children born that early! Yay!
The panic is setting in. We will be bringing him home. That is exciting and scary all at the same time. I've never been pregnant with a child I have been able to bring home and care for. The "normal" freak-outs have begun and I'm starting to feel the need to get the house clean, to get him clothes and diapers and everything else a little baby needs. :-) It's definitely a new feeling, but it's a good one! We're preparing for a baby.
I know I've mentioned this before, but I wanted to say it again. A lot of people who have had losses have a very difficult time once the baby is born and with them. Having a baby is such an abstract concept until it actually happens and you're faced with the all night feedings, crying and diaper changes. I look forward to all of this, but I also know it will be stressful, too. But a good kind of stress. :-) And a very welcome type of stress.... No one will ever be able to say we didn't want you, Cole!