It's 2:23am right now. I woke up about 30 minutes ago to the sound of my son snoring in his crib. I layed there for a few minutes thinking about how it is such a simple pleasure to listen to him breathe--- something we never heard Kailee do. There is nothing like listening to a baby's soft breathing pattern. It's nice to experience the quiet of the morning to think about Kailee on my own with no distractions. I hope I'll be able to get back to sleep.
Today we are planning on having a fun day. I've taken the day off of work. (I wouldn't really be much help to anyone today,) I'm staying home with my son. He will receive extra hugs and kisses today. He will receive extra "I love you's" from mommy. Yeah, I'm pretty much going to smother him today. :-) We are going to pick out some new flowers for Kailee. We will also carve pumpkins today--- something we haven't done for the last 2 years. I want to watch my son experience this holiday. I want to watch him smile and laugh. Tonight we will take him trick or treating and we will also be lighting paper lanterns for Kailee at dusk. Before bed, we will pick out a book from Kailee's library to read. I can't tell you how much that library means to me. Reading Colson the handwritten notes from the front has been priceless.
Please keep us in your heart today. I know the world moves on. I understand, but today is a day we will celebrate the life of our daughter. She lived in my belly 27 weeks and 6 days. I felt her little kicks same as I felt Colson kicking me. As sad as I am, I am also very blessed that God chose me to be Kailee's mother.