God knew what he was doing when he made it so Kailee would be my firstborn. I was ignorant to what it felt like to bring home a baby from the hospital. I was ignorant what it felt like to be so exhausted. I was ignorant about all the milestones and timing of everything. I just saw Kailee as a tiny little baby. I never thought-- at 6 months--- that she "should" be sitting up by this point in her development. I didn't know that. I was spared that pain and I am greatful for it.
Watching Colson grow gives me a unique perspective. I'm learning right along with him. Most of the time that makes me happy, but I do get sad about it too. Today is one of those days.