On Thursday night, I began to bleed. Friday we went to vanderbilt to be checked out at the request of our OB office. They told me that I am having an inevitable miscarriage. The ultrasound showed a baby sac, but my pregnancy hormone is almost back down to zero.
This third loss has hit me differently than all the rest. During the first miscarriage, I was devastated. I shut down for almost a week and was just so upset. After Kailee died--- same thing. For this one, I'm not sure if I'm still in shock, but I'm functioning normally. I did all my errands and finished household chores yesterday. I went to church today. I'm not sure what's different. This loss is much earlier than any other loss we have experienced. I have to go for a follow up this week with my OB to make sure everything resolved itself appropriately. For those of you praying, please pray specifically that I will not have to have any medical measures taken to complete this miscarriage.
So here we are. We are not making any formal announcement of what happened. We figured that, mostly, the people who are following this blog are the ones who keep up with us on a regular basis.
"That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are being renewed every day. For our present troubles are quite small and won't last very long. Yet they produce for us an immeasurably great glory that will last forever! So we don't look at the troubles we can see right now; rather, we look forward to what we have not yet seen. For the troubles we see will soon be over, but the joys to come will last forever." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18